Somewhere in the middle

The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector ( Luke 18)

9To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: 10"Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11The Pharisee stood up and prayed about[a] himself: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.'
13"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'
14"I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

I was supposed to read this in church this morning, but our pastor had other ideas, however id did get me thinking a bit.
Firstly there was a period of guilt,
The Sister who tells us what scripture we are reading rand me on Friday afternoon to tell me what I was reading, I got round to reading it on Saturday night.
As I was reading I realised that this was the first time I had picked up my Bible in weeks.....not day but weeks and the more I thought about it I think the last time was probably the last time I had to do a reading!!!
If I were to go without food for the same length of time I would be sick very quickly! Recently I have felt myself drift so could this be why?
Possibly if not probably.
The Bible is the word of God and is the life blood on which we exist, to not read his word is a drastic failure on my part, if I am drifting the its no-one fault but mine, our God gives us all the tools we need to exist in his Kingdom here on earth, church being a part, The Bible is like our instruction book, it should be where we turn to in any situation, it should be our first port of call.
So from here on in I make this commitment....I WILL pick my bible on a daily basis!!
Secondly It got me thinking about which one am I- the tax collector or the Pharisee?
I believe that I am "somewhere in the middle" I am not holier than thou, thanking God that I am not like other men, but neither am I beating my breast in repentance. Sound good? It’s not a good place to be, it makes me lukewarm! and we know what the Lord says about Lukewarm!!

Rev 3:16"So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth"


It’s a frightening thought... so I know I need to get back to a place where I am on fire for the Lord!!
Step 1: read more Bible!
Step 2 : seek the Lord and Repent